When at home...

Fear

Fear Jumped off the cliff
It landed in the river
Covered in all the mist
Fear tried to drown
Muscles started work
They took fear forward
Helped by all the force
The current moved onward.

Fear tried to hold a rock
The current made it go
Fear tried to swim away
Yet it went with the flow.

Fear was moving on
of being fear itself
Fear was writing songs
about all that unsaid.

Fear was popping out
of its little closet
Fear was bred at home
as away it was lead.

Fear was smothered
by the blue corset
Fear was writing home
with news of no bread.

Fear was a waking dream
or a sleep nightmare
Fear was unwritten words
and those things unsaid.

Fear was moving in
as out it slowly swept
Fear was clutching on
at the loss of its grip.

Memory faded
as life caught on.
Fear was invaded
as it finished the song.

*Conditions Apply

Love yourself
for
God Loves You*

Love your family
for
Your family Loves You**

Love your siblings
for
Your siblings Love You***

Love your neighbors
for
Your neighbors Love You****

Love your (new) family
for
Your (new) family Loves You*****

Love your companion
for
Your companion Loves You******

*condition apply
I am the Lord thy God
Thou shalt have no other gods before me
Thou shalt not lie
Thou shalt not steal
Man shalt not lie with man
Thou shalt not leave
Thou shalt not live
It is an abomination.

**conditions apply
You shall return home early
You shall not question
You shall excel at school
You shall not argue
You shall respect
You shall never disagree
You shall not tell others.
You shall make a family too.

***conditions apply
You shall not ask
You shall not move
You shall not sit
You shall not walk
You shall not talk
You shall not be
You shall not exist.

****conditions apply
You shall not play music loudly
You shall not park your car at my spot
You shall not come to me for coffee
You shall not bring home a friend
You shall not speak just nod.

*****conditions apply
You shall cook
You shall learn
You shall reproduce
You shall not argue
You shall respect
You shall never disagree
You shall not tell others.

******condition apply
You will listen and speak
You will be and let be
You will ask and tell
You will smile and cry

You will and let move.

You will agree

when I say Goodbye.

Requeis had a friend.

Only Child,
Borne only once:
bore many strengths,
mistaken for a 'dunce'.
No sibling,
foe or friend.
walking down a lane
she decided to make amend.

A friend she made
she walked around,
the woes of her heart
she spoke aloud.

She danced about,
and rode a bike.
People were happy,
to see the new sight.
She jumped and danced
round and round she ran;
Suddenly one day,
she stopped in her plan.

She curled over,
into a ball she grew.
To no one she spoke
nor any person knew.
Her friend was gone,
she was so scared.
To step out,
no one really dared.

One day slowly,
she sat up
and said,
to her imaginary friend:

"You wooed me
 You Chose me
 You closed me
 My trust was mis-spent.
 You touched me
 and used me.
 You abused me.
 My dear friend."

Auto-Choris

He gave his best
He could not see the rest.
Everything he did
He bore the highest bid.
Every tutor who walked in
Was thouroughly impressed.
Autochoris refused to partake
in the ruckus and the din.

As he sat his test:
He said all the right things
He wrote what he must
For everything he was just.
As he did all of this
Another of him watched.
As he hovered above
The playing scene glitched.

Auto went about all the chores
Choris watched from ashore.
Auto was busy with his books
Choris through the window looked.
Auto was ahead of the herd
Choris stood out like a bird.
Auto was loved and praised
Choris was refused to be raised.
Auto blossomed and grew
Choris slowly withdrew.

With Choris gone
Auto was lost.
The splendour and laughter
Was now a draught.

With Choris gone
Auto was reserved.
Still ahead of the herd
He moved undeterred.

A day came
when Auto could not go
without Choris in the tow.

Auto stopped moving on
and searched for Choris
who had long been gone.

Demi at the Ball

Relief
Acceptance
Belief and Fall.
Demi went to the ball.
They danced, they sang
Together they ran.

A glance to the side,
a shabby smile.
She ran into arms
Of a friend bygone.
Forgotten the dance
The splendour true.
For now she saw
The colour blue.

Now she heard
The lilies in bloom.
The fountain of wonder
Lifted the gloom.
She felt at home
Amidst all the noise.
She felt afloat
As she heard the voice.

There were no jitters
There were no songs.
There was a peace,
Silence from beyond.
She held onto shivers
As the wind swept.
The hair unfurled
Shadows slowly slept.

The fragrance
creeps its way in.
Solace complete
in the expansive din.

Time Warp

To
Mudita on February 26th, 2011

You were right.
You lost the key to your self regard,
you knew where to find the bend.
You knew the latitude which passes through,
but you were scared that you will not fend.
Find your way back; against the wind.

I took us there yesterday.
I know it was the bend where we dropped the key.
I am scrambling around the corners,
It keeps eluding me.

I know we were scared to be lost,
inspite of knowing the way.
Maybe we knew it a little too well.

I also know either way, I was lost;
For I was unable to anymore pretend.
I am not sulking in the corners,
I am still hard at work.
I promise to pick up and look forward,
for my trek will elude no curve.
I promise to keep looking,
I promise to find out.
Till we walk homeward
Till we wear our shroud.

I hope to find it earlier,
for we still have a long way to go.
I hope to unlock our insides;
Under the same big old oak,
Where the woodpecker's grown old.
Yet it refuses to stop pecking
and leave the tree alone.

Love
Me on March 4th, 2015