Reading a random thing never quite works
Sometimes You are given things which do.

Completely out of the context in which the text* was probably written.

After very long taking the liberty of using someone else's text to express.

Probably because I maybe can't put it this way.

Choosing to play with I, Me and Myself.

I explore what is it to be at the center and yet out of the circle.

I feel:

I am scared of the world, but try to conquer it anyway.

I am the crazy girl. Too many insecurities. Too many flaws.

I am the crazy girl because I am an expert
         on the importance of loving myself (theoretically of course).

I know:

I need help and that I am the only one who can give myself that virtue.

I am the crazy girl, but I need not a caretaker.

I am the crazy girl who will listen when thoughts drive into a mind hurricane.

I will:

learn to read emotions because I have mastered that skill on myself.

learn to let the world not fall amiss.

learn to live with and without it all.

I am:

not scared of learning.

not scared of it all leaving.

not obliged to be either.

But of all thing I simply AM

*Couldn't acknowledge source as I found the text by chance.

To "the Force"

I keep chasing you away
And yet you keep coming back to me
I have told you we are over
But you keep clinging on.
They say I am fond of you
But I am done really
Was done long ago.
I have not learnt how to ignore.
I would rather not have you around.
You pushed me off the edge yourself.
Some do so by leaving
You did so by staying too long.
Love is too strong a word,
Like still a stronger emotion.
I am not in that circle
Unfortunately observing from within.
I will be out of it too.
And then you will know.
I had let you stay too long
I had found comfort
in the little place you left me.
Now I can't keep curled up
I need to stretch and step.
I maybe need to dance,
And I need to roll.
Jump off my own cliff
Without you giving me a hand.
I will decide which parachute to take
Or if any at all.
It is my decision to make
And you can stop rolling the ball.

Mathematics 2

A 30 cm is a foot
Where I know that 2.54 is an inch.
I know I had to be reaching a full
But still a 30 inch I simply fail.
I ask my brain if a 15 is a foot
Or maybe a 30 inch is still a foot
Mind you it was a ruler I thought
A foot was definitely a 30 in cm
But how much in an inch I fail.
I thought and thought
And there it was
Surely a 15 inch would make a foot
But I have always known it hasn't
I look for the number and then more.
Some tell me its the good old 12
And I know it sure is.
Why can't I meet the 12?
When I was always so true.
Again,
Understanding this struggle
Is in the pace-
a struggle my brain seem to face.

Mathematics 1

When 20 added to 30 can't be 40,
but at the same time it can't be 60.
A 30 minute cycle after starting at 20
Takes us to which point closer to 60
It definitely takes me away from 40.
A pace which I can't seem to pace
I thought it could be a good 70.
But that is so difficult to place.
A 70 in time would be 1:10
But yet a 20 plus 30 in time isn't.
I place the 30 after the 20
And after a grand struggle
I place the 3 after the 2
That is when I get a good old 5.
And so definitely a 30 and 20
Had to make the so difficult 50.
Understanding this struggle
Is in the pace-
a struggle my brain seem to face.

Your Own Shit 2

Your Own Shit

Still Brushing my Brain